*sigh*
i guess i'm not that good at this blogging stuff, after all. told you i'd post every single day, but look what happened. this is like, 9 days since last post? and so much had happened in between.
okay. to make a long story short, here's the 'summary' of my past nine days.
- i am going for that scout camp in thailand!
- i've got a statistics mid-term exam on the 23rd, when i'm already on the road to thai. but i've got that covered. thank goodness my lecturer is SO nice, he let me sit the test later than everyone else in the class when i told him about my Thai outing. that's sweet of him, i never thought of him like that before. that totally changed my prespective about him (terima kasih Dr!). yeah. like, really.
-someone just wanted to kiss me? i mean, what was that about? just because he owes me a favor, he wanted to do that? what a jerk. i mean, hello, eventhough i hang out with guys most of the time dosen't mean that i'm a slut and ready to be kissed, okay? i've never and may not be kissed by someone other than persons who i permit! who does not include him, all right? but maybe that's just me. maybe he's got some good intention (oh, really?). haha. maybe.
- i've got heaps of final exams coming up as soon as i return from Thailand. why did i agree to go in the first place? dah la aku tak habis study lagi.. nak tambah lagi dengan subjek-subjek yang memang memeningkan kepala macam basic statistics and computational mathematics. now i'm starting to feel that sense of regret. am i doing the right desicion by going to that camp?
- more and more people are asking about me having a guy. i mean, no. i'm not dating anyone in particular. with random guys, yes. and i mean, random as many guys that i do know. not random sungguh sungguh tidak dikenali. not yet. not ready yet. may never will. i know i'll be damned saying that, but i've just said it. so be it. i'm single, and may always be single. forever. biarlah apa orang nak kata. i'm not going to date. i want to focus on my studies. i know, lots of people are saying that university life is the best phase of life to find a life partner. but no. i'm only 18. tak ada maknanya aku nak ada teman lelaki sekarang. not when i'm still struggling with my own studies. not when i have not have at least one semester of being in the dean's list to my name. what is it with the people here? does being enrolled to a university means you have to have a special person in your heart. well, i may have a crush, lots of crushes actually, haha, but a real boyfriend? NOOOOO.. ask me again when i've obtained my Ph.D, aite?
- i've got problem with my proposal, again. it's been stuck at the TNC's office yet again. and i can't execute my plans properly. the banner and plaque are ready, the hamper had been bought it's contents, but the problem is just the freaky proposal. that major problem. nothing can be done until the proposal is settled. which is after all, not settled yet up to this moment. why does this have to happen to me? WHY? now i have to give up my post as project manager to someone else. someone who i know can get the job done, even if his attitude are not acceptable sometimes. my ex-officio. yeah he can do the job, but sometimes, he is just too hard on me. look at yesterday, he gave all the blame on me, eventhough he knew that submitting the proposal was something me secretary was supposed to do, tired or not. he knew that many of us are busy last week. he himself was busy. yet he blames me. he blames me for not recieving a message i send, asking for his help. but okay, i get all the hatred from him, but so far i'm still holding it. haven't expressed anything to him directly. not now. not yet. but wait until i've finally really had it with him. then i'll know what should be done. wait and see. and yeah, i'm giving him the job. hopefully he'll be able to handle it while i'm gone. i'm quite disappointed actualy, seeing what i've been doing all this while for this project. seeing that i'm not going to be the one to execute all my plans, thanks to the birocracy of the Student Affairs of UMT. one time is acceptable, but two times of date delay? i mean, come on. takkan sebab lambat tukar tarikh saja kena tukar seluruh program?
- one more scoop on the karenah (did i spell that right?) birokrasi Hal Ehwal Pelajar UMT. our proposal to Thailand had been suspended due to the absence of our beloved Vice Chansellor. that guy at the HEPA counter said that the VC is not going to return until tuesday. then he could approve our proposal. it will be then that we are going to depart to Thailand early in the morning. that VC office is not going to be opened until 8.00 am. we are already gone by 7.30 am. but we are stuck in UMT until the approval from the VC is obtained. so we're squashed in the middle. no Plan B. we would have to wait. but there's another news. the VC is coming back tomorrow, which is monday, for a meeting with some Datuk here. that says our advisor. see the clash? i don't know who to believe now. maybe it wasn't meant to be, after all. maybe we weren't to go abroad now. maybe i shoudnt have agreed to join them. lots of maybes now. regrets? no. second thoughts? maybe. geram lah dengan situasi kat sini. too much problem.
- the AGM. i've been invited to two, and am going to be invited for another one. the scouts AGM is set to be on the 30th oct, while for taekwondo, it's 23rd, which i won't have the chance to join because of my outing to Thailand. and the other one, the unscheduled one, is the AGM for Himpunan Mahasiswa Matematik. i might not go for that one either. i hate politics, to be frank. but i'm a member for these clubs, so i have to go. but i've been hearing rumors. my name might be brought up for scouts and tkd. i don't know. i'm not chasing the name nor the fame. not that i'm willing to do the job either. but, what if the community here are starting to have a little faith in me? what if this small community i'm joining really think that i can do some good to the club's future? what if? what should i do? i don't want to but...
okay. that's it. i can't think of anything to write anymore. i'm hungry. am going to go outside to have some dinner. i'll see you when i see you. da.
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