a little note for you.

dear you,

i think i'm starting to fall for you.
don't ask me why, because even i don't have the answer.
for i'm now being pretty confused myself.

this is horror, no doubt.
i'm scared for you.
i'm terrified for myself.
you know i am.
this would definitely eat me alive.
i don't want this to ruin us.
i don't want this crazy thing called love and lust to ruin that little lovely thing called friendship.
for being friends is already too much of a privilege to me.

i'm flying you this note.
so that you'll know that the past, present and future are three different things.
what's in the past should stay in the past.
let the present and future bring surprise to you.

also, for me to put away this denial for good.
be level-headed as i have always been.
be where i always have.
make or break.
i won't be asking anything from you.
i'm not taking chances.
i will forget this mess and continue on with life.
i hope i will.

please do remember this.
you'll always be my bro. no matter how we are now.
i'll always be happy for you, whenever you are.
and, for what it's worth, i'll be here when you need me.
no strings attached.

yours truly, me.

p.s: sorry for whatever you may have heard from her. that wasn't intended. not at all. i knew i should trust no one.